11:09 PM|*sigh* i am tipsy. didn';t eat all that much at the fest... had a sausage sammich and 5 pitchers of beer at rudy's (44th and 9th)

my apartment smells sweet- not a good sweet - think it's the smell of plant death looming

10:59 AM|ok... well, i went to my weight watcher's meeting this moring (yes, i admit it... i have to be in a program to lose weight...) and a week or so ago i was 163.6 and today i am 164... yay!! jeezuz i thought i was gonna gain 4 pounds this week... ate like a fiend... of course after today and tomorrow i AM gonna gain a bucket of weight...whatever... it's a process... 18 pounds off me since february 10th this year, not too shabby :)

oh yeah and starting at 9am across the street from my brownstone in the park, there's been a christian rock band called 'rags to riches' singing and playing bongos and -- even more than singing or the bongos - mucho feedback (hot mike! we have a hot mike here! whew!)

7:40 PM|hey this is a simple & handsome site... http://www.thinkdink.com/

and here is a really classy 'error' page... error 404

4:28 PM|um... my prison bitch name is... *gulp* Gay Boy
get yours...

4:03 PM|my hockey name is Dougie McBennettson ... get yours....
found this link off of swallowingtacks [via Harrumph and jish.nu]
-- note: take notice that swallowing tacks ALSO listens to cowboy mouth... the best damned band in the world... thank you. i am not alone

3:44 PM|mmmm high powered frothiness found in a venti caramel macchiato... *sigh*

3:13 PM|hell's bells!!! i forgot to eat lunch... chilly and damp outside... should i go for salad or something else... hmmmm... oh the dilemma... and i have to weigh in tomorrow morning (before the food fest -- did i mention the food fest enough??? :) -- thinking i might just partake in a starbuck's caramel macchiato....mmmmmmmm

2:31 PM|note from st. pat's day fiasco guy:
"Miss Tude...Can't even take a joke....
Just because your hair looks like an eagle's nest!!! HAHAHAHA only
kidding But, probably still very pretty.....and can't hide the great smile...."

why are boys like this? just when i post crap on here and want to be pissed off...

1:49 PM|dan created these delightful flash files (starring jav & luke) *i work with these guys...lemme see!!!

1:31 PM|hahahah! call the design police!!

1:14 PM|so i get an email from the st. patrick's day fiasco guy today saying how he needs to grab a drink and asks how i am (he emailed me 2 days ago asking to go out tonight, but i really am not in the mood) anyway: i write back to him

'my allergies are killing me and it's freezing in here, bad hair day and the
rainy sort of ambience is making me whiny because i couldn't snuggle in my
comforter til noon... other than that i am fine...'

so i get this from him... "Sorry to hear all those issues..... Maybe another time....." so i say, 'wouldn't say they are 'issues' just yapped to you...sure. another time maybe.'

now i wouldn't really call them 'issues'... i was just griping... and then he writes back to me saying i have an attitude...

*ugh*

now, i never did mention what happened on st. pat's day.. let's just say it would have been great if i had JUST stuck to hanging with cathy and bill and not included this guy who seems to have a control issue thing (#@#*!!)... i am being very vague here... to protect the, well, not the innocent, but i don't need him growling at me...

going out of your way to try to make me feel like i have done something wrong or have "issues" does not really sit very well with me...i hate mind games...i hate any games (except scrabble and trivial pursuit, and we just started playing Taboo at work and i seem to kick butt with that)...

if i wanted someone to put me down, i would just talk to myself, thank you.

so i am sticking with my original convictions from around st. pat's day to not really yap with him anymore, i do not need crap in my life like some people need...better fish... not that i want a stanky ol' fish, but you know what i mean...

10:49 AM|so i am sitting here at work... pretty much doing the same thing as i was doing at home yesterday - except not in pajamas... and also my hair is on the fritz today so i was in major need of a baseball cap... now, not for nothing, i have a big noggin (big brain=big noggin)... and the only stinkin' hat i own that fits my head is my xceed hat - i feel like i am supporting satan's spawn by wearing this... ugh... need a new hat...not that i wear them a lot -- more of a bandana girl --- as seen in my ireland photos... nope, not the prettiest look in the world, but some days i am lazy...whatever.. bite me. rain (as much as we need it) puts me in a funk... wish it had rained yesterday when i was home... and it's supposed to rain a BIT in the morning tomorrow - before i go walking the food festival (mmmm... mozzerreppa, raviolis, chicken satays, brooklyn lager... oh yeah....mmmmm....i am gonna gain 40 pounds by the time i go on this date on monday...)... i do like the smell of wet soil in the spring though... the flower boxes outside my apartment smelled real keen... then i got off the PATH train at 23rd on the way to work and the sleeping bum/urine smell slapped me in the face and knocked the wet dirt odor out of my memory...

8:36 AM|mornin'... i am getting ready to go to work... for the first time in 27 (or so) days, it's gonna rain...

12:17 AM|it's also my aunt ann's 72nd birthday today! (and the pope's... and it would have been perry como's, too) happy birthday!!! she doesn't have a computer... but...i am willing her to hear me say it --- or i might call later today--- left the card i was gonna send today at work and i was out, so ... ugh. anyway, she's great! has a farm and gave me my first pony (Lulu) when i was 1 year old... and my next one when i was 3 (his name was thunder)... she and my aunt letty are fantastic artists... totally in awe of them... aunt ann, she has white hair and has a great face, suncreased...and i remember when i was small, praying to God to 'please give me white hair and wrinkles so i can be like aunt ann' -- sure enough i am getting gray hairs at age 30 and the wrinkles i am sure are not far away...sure he listens to THAT prayer, but...

12:10 AM|well, saw the season finale of friends... ironically it's the first episode of friends i have watched all season... -- had a phone call during the show... going out on monday night...good good :) didn't weigh in at weight watchers tonight... going on saturday morning then i am off to chow down at the 9th avenue international food festival with cathy and bill & his wife linda (at least i think linda is going) -- hmmm what else? just feeling a bit out of sorts... stress from mom's aneurysm is screwing with me... so i took a bubble bath (yes, mr. bubble was present) watched 'er' and thought anthony edwards was gonna get killed off on "er"... who do you think might get 'hit' on the season finale of the Sopranos!!???? lemme know!!!

11:51 PM|Don't wait for your "ship to come in" and feel angry and cheated when it doesn't. Get going with something small. -- Irene Kassorla

12:41 PM|ugh * another friend of mine was laid off today... that's brings the total to 6 in a month and a half

10:10 AM|i kill plants. my ficas 'tree' is dying in front of my very eyes... leaves falling like, well, leaves. my other really cool looking plant is wilting away like an 87 year old man with kidney failure the only thing that is not about to croak (but give it time) is the bamboo shoot i have...

this is why i should have cut flowers sent to me... i can't kill them.

9:59 AM|so i stayed home from work today.... think i caught pneumonia from the AC at the office... gonna loll about and watch the tee vee.... and *ack* possibly clean my apartment

2:04 AM|oh dear gawd i am tired as sin... must sleep... west wing was grand tonight... and i had a phone call that i really wanted to take at 9:52pm and had to tell him 'um lemme talk to you later'... yes i am a tee vee junkie... i admit it... but come on! it was the season finale... the last 8 minutes! hoping the weinerdog was found unscathed... goodnight...

12:20 AM|ok so wednesday started out weird... lost (or hopefully just misplaced) my PATH card and then after work i called a collector that i had paid months and months ago but they are still haranguing me, and i tried to get a paid in full letter from the jerk... but this guy is a frickin' psycho... anyone ever have to deal with a place called north eastern asset recovery???? or know of a total schmuck named Ken Jarrett who lives in or near Thornwood, new york?? if you do.... well... kick him in the shins for me...

all i wanted was this letter and the jerk (and this story is not going to do the 'conversation' justice) starts yelling at me how they are not sending me a letter and that i should wait by the mailbox forever and then he starts talking over me saying "what would you like?" over and over...

so i say "what i would like is for you to be quiet and let me speak for at least 15 seconds without any interruptions"

Ken: "You aren't my Mother, don't tell me what to do, Erin"
Me: "All I am..."
Ken: "Shut up! what would you like? say it ERIN...what's your point?!?!"
Me: "Well, i..."
Ken: "What would you like?! Spit it out, Bitch!"

and it went on like that and i started to have a bout of torrets whilst chatting with this 'gentleman'

i have never been so shaky mad in my life... there was more - pretty much him saying "i would hang up if i were you, erin, because i have your number and address"

i hate collectors... ironically my mother is a collector, and she called me in the middle of this call -- so i sicced her on him and had her call and growl... he thought she was me and started lacing in on her, so she is whipping out some sort of debt collection law - there is one, you know... some great american better debt collectors so and so law where they can't behave like rotten bastards on the phone... i mean COME ON... it was a piddily amount of cash to begin with, secondly i paid the original company months ago and i feel i shouldn't have -- stupid dentist - that's another story i will get into (let's give you a brief detail: he shot my upper left palate up with novacaine, then began drilling on the bottom right molar... and i screamed and he said "suck it up we're almost done"... that was when i began practicing La Mas... not your normal La Mas, but the Bill Cosby "Himself" La Mas breathing because i never have had a kid... it doesn't help with dental work)

ok enough venting about this lowlife

5:02 PM|bored bored bored... pretty hungry... had a coffee for breakfast a caramel macchiatto for lunch and god only knows what sort of binging i will be doing in an hour or so.... cripes

4:22 PM|ok... so i was checking out my tracking thingy for my site and what people search for on google, etc... holy crap... these folks are loopy... what's worse is... MY SITE COMES UP when they type this crap:

   "squirrel porn"
   "Xceed is evil" -- i LOVE that someone searched for that!!!! *bastards*
   "girls photos spittle" -- um... yuck
   "baby body-cast porn" - i do not even wanna know

my site isn't a porn site!!!!!!! well, ok so my meta tag MIGHT have the word porn in it... but....

2:16 PM|ok so i set up this thing with blogvoices and where it says "yap back", well, you can post crap to me... so...

1:42 PM|word to the wise:
never tell your therapist that you have written conversations with your alter-ego caricature...

11:39 AM|MOTHER OF PEARL!!! i hate when i do that... what you say? well... i uploaded the wrong index page to my erin homepage on gigglechick and i had to recreate an entirely new one because Dum-Dum didn't have a copy...arrrgh...

10:53 AM|ever type with mittens on? i need them in my office today...they "fixed" the air conditioning and now i am more than likely gonna come down with pneumonia...

hey this saturday and sunday is the 9th avenue international food festival!! yeah!!!!! yum!!!!

10:21 AM|so i had my meeting this morning about the state of design here at work... we are really extremely slow here right now... so slow it's frightening... i mean, come on... i am rambling on this thing a billion times in one day... it MUST be slow... so i have been doodling here

8:53 AM|*yawn*

woke up wayyyyy later than i wanted to --- of course i am on here instead of getting ready for work....
ugh. hey kids, i promise the novelty of blogger will wear off and i will start posting really meaningful stuff soon (i think) until then i am just gonna yap and say how i brushed my teeth (with colgate) and how many times i hit the snooze alarm since 6am (24 - i have 2 alarms...)

1:01 AM|dammit i have to go to bed... watched the sopranos... finally -- great stuff!!! dang but i love that show... and now i am tired and i have to get up early because i have a meeting at 9:30am (yeah yeah i SHOULD be in there usually around then, but i am not a 'morning person' so to speak...) ugh. night, kids... hey... 36 days til my birthday...

12:14 AM|Gentlemen, why don't you laugh? With the fearful strain that is upon
me night and day, if I did not laugh, I should die.

-- Abraham Lincoln

10:43 PM|so i am thinking of finally getting the nerve up to send my work out to greeting card companies... illustrations mainly but i also am working on some full blown writing & illustrating stuff....

8:07 PM|yum... dinner (actually dinner is also doubling as lunch)...santa fe rice and beans.... pretty tasty... there... yep... most of these posts are me just yammering to myself pretty much, but i don't look as crazy doing this as opposed to when i talk to myself outloud :)

6:39 PM|me thinks i MAY become addicted to this damned blogger thing

5:19 PM|ok... well... the podiatrist's other office was a far cry from the clinic place i went to the other day... comfy chairs (no no NOT the comfy chair!!!)...yes, comfy chairs, competent staff, no one else in the waiting room (i mean it WAS 4:45pm) and i was taken into the office about 2 minutes later... he took a gander at my big ol' toe and said it was SPECTACULAR!! ok... maybe he didn't swoon over it, but he said it looks good, right on track, i am not going to be crippled...

sure my career as a toe model is over... well, maybe i could model some of the "before" photos... *sigh*

and no boiled chicken lady this time!!!

4:22 PM|so i have to go to the podiatrist now to have my toe looked at -- sort of a check up if you will... since i had it shot up and hacked at on thursday.

tonight i wanted to - but can't - go to Caroline's to see Lisa Lampanelli

cripes i forgot to eat lunch today -- and no, this doesn't mean i am starving myself, it just means i have been sitting here fiddling with this blogger mess... in fact last night i ate an entire medium thin crust dominoes cheese pizza...

mmmm.. pizza... no no no cannot eat it again...must be healthy... must go to Dr. FootBoy and hope i don't have track marks...

2:55 PM|i am thinking that this will be the right sort of 'fix' for any stalkers who can't sit still and bite their nails between my rants :)

2:36 PM|tomorrow is my old horse go poco pete's birthday... he was a crazy quarter horse that was drugged during a test drive and i bought him when i was 12... i ranted about him here.

1:55 PM|so i am figuring that this section will be my stupid thoughts and mini quips and stuff like that... whereas my 'rants section' will be my main yappiness pouring forth with larger tales.... that sound ok?? good!

1:21 PM|ugh... so i just received word that my hosting thing... global hosting ... is changing their IP address or something... i can foresee things getting screwed up.... arrrgh

12:47 PM|fail often to succeed sooner...