well... eh... good morning. can someone tell me the best way to scrape my tongue off the roof of my mouth?
i am not really hungover. this one feels like it'll only take a little water and maybe a mcD's #3 value meal to conquer... not too much of a headache.
okay that said...
*shaking my head*
so apparently i was professing my love in my post last night. cripes.
yeah. i know. hokey. but true. seriously, that stupid RHB... he gets under my skin every time.
there TGIDAJTWT (whatever) and i were at leggett's for about 3 or 4 beers then we thought it was lame- barely anyone was in costume there... so we went to o'neill's
okay... yesterday morning i called around to leggett's, o'neill's and rod's to see about parties.
here's the thought behind those 3 bars.
1.) leggett's i know folks there.
2.) o'neill's - probability of RHB being there is 80%
3.) rod's - if he wasn't gonna be there, he'd be at rod's
yes, pretty much, i haven't seen him since my birthday. to hang out with. but then around the beginning of july was when i last saw him at river house... okay. then i hadn't spoken with him on the phone til last week....
see, every time i listen to the radio, everytime i hear a certain song by cowboy mouth, everytime i drive through manasquan, everytime i am on the hoboken train, everytime i look out the nyc train and at the financial district, i think of him. everytime i see seinfeld... i think of him.
it sucks the way my mind has attached itself to him.
anyway, cut to last night.
we leave leggett's... and head to o'neill's... TGIDATATSDWT and i walk around the bar. i have my eyes peeled... evil aren't i? anyway i didn't see him, so we stood at the bar. TGID had to use the men's room... and i gasped as he left. there about 2 people from my left was the RHB... no costume, but whatever...
me, being drunky macfurkle already go over to him and say "you really should have put a red sox cap in the trunk of your car..."
(story: my birthday. i had a bag in the back of his car. after great adventure he dropped me off and i took the back but forgot my cap in the trunk. so when i spoke with him last week i told him the reason why the yankees lost was because he held my cap hostage)
he laughed and commented on my costume... about how he thought i was supposed to have award winning costumes and such - i explained how it was something i threw together last minute... and he said "you actually look beautiful"
took a second before my heart stopped richoceting off my ribs at that moment...
then i saw the construction clown (TGIDADAEIQWEW) coming back from the men's room. quizzical look on his face (even though i was talking with guys all night.)
i went back over to him. leaning against the wall as RHB was at the bar... and shooting me glances and smiles.
i kept going over and talking with him. it was so obvious. i was embarrassed about myself... but i couldn't stop. god i wanted to kiss him so badly it hurt.
anyway... TGIDETWRWQ and i were talking with some devils or something and i see RHB looking at me and held up a beer nodding at it in his normal pantomime that means "can i get you another?" and i nod yes.
TGISDASERFA actually runs to the bar and goes to buy 2 beers for me and him... i go over to get the beer - which gives me an excuse to stand near RHB (i am shameless. shameless.)
so there i am. sammiched between RHB and TGIDASFTER and i introduce them... RHB gives his full name and strong handshake, and TGISDASRFFS gives only his first name. handshake. and then i drink a huge swig of beer.
so we're standing there... and they both went to rutgers... and i try to begin a conversation (oh, by the way, TGIDASDWR asked me when he and i were near the wall, how i know RHB... i said, i've known him about 5 or 6 years... old friends)
okay so i start the rutgers talk, i don't remember what they are saying because on my left, the RHB grabs my hand and starts holding it so that TGIDSADFH can't see... i just remember he and i holding hands and him squeezing it every so often.
i know i sound like slime... but maybe that's because my heart melted right then and there.
okay. so TGIDASAKD had to use the men's room.
RHB and i are alone... apparently his friends had left earlier - that's why he was alone... and i asked where his girlfriend was... and he said "she's standing right here in pink" (melty heart richochet. dammit)... and he said "what's with the construction guy?" and i said "i dunno." made a face and said "no idea what's with us, we broke up thursday night sorta"
handsqueeze.
he said "we we never broke up" and i said "yeah, i know, technically we've been dating since november of 1999... cripes we're almost married" and he laughed...
and we were standing really close, looking in each others eyes - by the way both he and TGIDSADFSD have beautiful blue eyes... but the RHB's i could dive into.
now i know that TGIDASDDA is a lot cuter than the RHB in some folks eyes, but have their perks... but for some reason, just everything about the RHB (even the fact that he's thinning on the back of his head) just has me smitten...
***TGIDASDIYR just called me as i was typing. god i feel guilty. granted, RHB and i just held hands... and i am sure that he'd break my heart in a dozen pieces again if i gave him that chance.****
by the way. today is 3 months of dating or whatever for me and TGIDTIDKWTW
