not for nothing - let me preface this by telling you that i just visited gigglemom in the ICU. she was pissed off that i cancelled performing tonight. said that i couldn't do anything anyway so i should've gone into the city...
that said... Theresa in ga.
(who over the past couple of weeks has surfaced on my site by having lovely, yet, multiple multiple multiple comments.)
so she commented earlier - which was lovely (for the sake of time, i am only posting the original comment rather than all 4 of the same)................... but:
IP Address: 67.140.235.92
Name: Theresa in ga.
Email Address: rd9295@yahoo.comComments:
so sorry to hear about gm! hope all goes well for her.
about u performing I think u should not go. mom needs u. u can perform anytime.
okay - simple enough and fine. and at the time i was still hemming and hawing about performing... and, not for nothing, it IS my choice to do things... and my mom had already told me to go into the city.
so i wrote back to her "u can perform anytime." comment:
well, no, I can't perform in front of an hbo talent exec anytime.
yes, i said hbo. there was a talent coordinator for the us comedy festival in aspen that was coming to "take a second look" at me tonight... i think you can understand my dilemma... it's bloody hbo and my mother was stabilized and is not about to frigging keel over.
so i just received a response
(oddly enough, only one response, not 4):
In a message dated 8/20/2005 4:43:31 P.M., rd9295@yahoo.com writes:u just lost me as a reader, your very selfish,mom could be gone tomorrow,standup will always be there.
do i need the fucking "guilt trip" and threat that i just lost a reader? perhaps if she was such a loyal reader she would have seen that i was not performing. that i had spoken with the booker and cancelled. and if i am "losing a reader" that thinks i am selfish, well, so be it, i have 2200 others out there each day that are fine and dandy...
if one cannot understand that there was a moment that i had to LIVE LIFE for myself for an hour and a fucking half, then why are you frigging reading this site?
seriously. if anyone else has a problem with my being in a quandry about the obligation that i had to perform tonight (and i just received a phone call from a friend who showed up to the improv and didn't realize that i wasn't performing - sorry erin. seriously, i emailed everyone and couldn't call) but if anyone else has a problem with me even THINKING about performing because there was a chance with the frigging hbo chick watching my set, then please, by all means, do do DO let me know.
by the way - is is so frigging hard to SPELL OUT the word "you" rather than "u" ~?!!?!?!?!? if one read my site, one would KNOW that is one of my pet peeves.
