okay... so... yeah yeah, i'm still in slight pain. whatever.
and, no, i didn't go walking or running or whatever today. basically worked and sat on the couch...
oh, and i had Dominos --- a large Crispy Melt with sausage -- "what's that?," you ask... well, it's two thin crust sausage pizzas made into basically a pizza sammich.
don't worry... i didn't finish it all. i only had 7 of the 8 slices.
oh and i had 1 liter of coke.
and i almost forgot i ate a basket of their chicken kickers.
then I watched The Biggest Loser in between running to the bathroom where my body made noises like a cappuccino machine. too much?
at least, and here's the best part, at least i didn't get ill and have sausage stuck in my sinuses for 24 hours.
anyway... where was i? oh, that's right... being the picture of Sloth and Gluttony on my couch watching The Biggest Loser
every tuesday night after i watch the damned show i get a bee in my fat bonnet and either sign up for a weight loss site, buy nike+ with ipod stuff (which i love) or try pills like Alli.
guess what tonight's brilliant plan is!?
gonna join a gym!
what? "oh erin, you've already been a member of Curves and have gone 6 times in 1 year and 9 months. you really think that you'll GO to a gym gym?? you were a member of Bally's and went twice in a year. you were a member of NYSC for 4 years and went 12 times. What's different about THIS one??"
nothing. except i'm at my heaviest (translation: fattest ever) and my 20 year class reunion is June 7th of 2008 and i've gotta do something.
Maybe if it's crappy out, instead of saying "eff it. it's snowy or rainy... i'm not walking around the reservoir" i will say "oh hell, let me drive a mile and hit the gym" and maybe if i can't run/walk, i can go do weights or whatever. at least get me out of the frigging house and away from the computer for an hour. (the house is depressing. really. you don't even know...)
best part, i have to plunk down $175 and then it's a month to month for $24 (my mom's disability did run out, but, i'm not shopping for cardboard boxes.... i know i said "sizzlean" the other day, but, ladies and gents, it was a slight exaggeration... i probably SHOULDN'T be thinking about buying a gym membership but, i am feeling miserable about my big fat life and need to do something ---- even with my farked up knees.... )
the gym... WorkOut World... aka WOW!
it says that every month a member gets 2 free personal training sessions (basically i need that Jillian Michaels to scream at me to get off my fucking ass... )
Whatchoosayin'?? (5 yapped)
now's the time of year to do it indoors for sure. i'm still out running and biking all bundled up like the michelin man. i'm disappointed that i can't pretend my ass looks exquisite in my underarmor now though.
Posted by furiousball | December 12, 2007 10:53 AM
Congratulations!!!! I'm sure that's gonna help you a bunch. If you need help with accountability, you can always dust off that sparkpage, make your excersise log public, and I'll come in and scream at you when I see you lagging hehehehehe
Posted by laura | December 12, 2007 10:53 AM
I know this won't get posted, because my last comment to you about the possibility of you being a manic depressive didn't get posted.
However, you will at least read this and that's what counts.
Erin, no amount of gym fees, Nikes, iPods, "Biggest Loser" watchings, Alli, or screaming trainers you try is going to work until you get your chemicals in balance.
That's your problem, in a nutshell....erm..so to speak.
Go see a real doctor. Maybe an internist - lay it all out there, have them do some blood work, find out what the hell is going on. After that, you can make informed decisions about what to do next.
I really relate to the weight struggles, but unlike you, I cannot even blame my lack of progress on any underlying problem...except, maybe genetics..but still...it's a frustrating ride, I know.
I do, however, have friends and family members like you..highs, lows, peaks, and valleys. It's a simple case of chemicals gone wacky, nothing more.
Please, see a doctor.
Posted by CJ | December 12, 2007 10:11 AM
I am right there with you. I've done the same thing as you - joined WW, gone for two weeks, quit WW six months later; joined gym, gone for two weeks, quit gym 12 months later. Rinse, repeat ad nauseum.
This morning I weighed myself only to find I'm at my heaviest ever. Even 9 months preggers I wasn't this heavy. Yesterday I started a 30-day commitment thing where in every two weeks I select a new 30-day plan. Right now it's no eating out. In two weeks I'll add no chocolate. Two weeks after that, no eating after 9 p.m. etc. I'm hoping that by doing things for a month I can stick with it, and yet still feel like I'm making small positive changes that will result in weight loss. Then for Lent this year I'm doing ALL of the 30-day commitments AND walking a mile a day.
Good luck to you - I know EXACTLY what you are going through!
[note from GC: ah, i nearly forgot that i've been paying $40 a month for WW for the past year. haven't gone since june i think]
Posted by Jaynee | December 12, 2007 9:20 AM
Workout world...isnt that were the attorney in PRETTY WOMEN said that his wife worked out...lol..Good luck..I know how you feel about your knees mine kill me all the time...
Michelle
Posted by Michelle Sullivan | December 12, 2007 7:54 AM