don't forget to rabbit rabbit.

(i'm trying to update this. just not feeling it anymore.)

on the positive side, i recently redesigned TomPapa.com and JeffGarlin.com

hopefully, it will turn out to be the "SMALLER 4-OH" instead.

tonight i stepped on the scale and it effing read 240.3
(yet another "40" that I didn't want to see.)

maybe it was the cheeseburger, fries and gravy that i had for dinner at the diner whilst reading Jeff Garlin's weight loss journey "My Footprint : Carrying the Weight of the World" which he signed for me and I wound up dripping the aforementioned gravy on page 72.

maybe it was the 2 pork roll sandwiches that I had for breakfast (at 2pm) from Manhattan Bagel.

maybe it was the piece of chicken breast (that I'd cooked in Campbell's Cream of Celery Soup the night before) that I ate at about 1am as I watched my recording of the most recent episode of The Biggest Loser....

All I know is... I need to do something.... AGAIN.... and right quick.

Back in January I was working out every day --- seriously... every bloody day --- I'd gotten gigglecousin Kerry a pass to my gym for Christmas --- yes... it was a gift with ulterior motives because it also gave me a workout buddy. Then she stopped going....

consequently, so did I.

I was SO happy when I was going, too --- no idea why I stopped.

Tomorrow I need to throw my sneakers and gym clothes into the dryer (they're in the wash for the 2nd time in a row because of an unfortunate gigglemom tobacco/cigarette swill accident the other day)

Listen... I'm turning FORTY on June 21st. that's 12 weeks away (3 months. yeah.)

Since I work for myself and my gym is open 24 hours a day, there's really no excuse.

Here are my things I need to work on:

1. Obviously, attempt not to devour large quantities - that's my major issue... I'm not exactly controlled when it comes to portions (note the TWO pork roll sandwiches earlier)

2. Sleep. Yeah. I am a nightowl ---- an obese nightowl whose feathers aren't fitting her very well anymore. As I'm writing this, it's 4:30 in the effing morning. Gee... I wonder if I'll get up before noon today?

3. Move. Yes. I need to haul myself over to the gym (which is 47 seconds by car from my parking spot to the gym door.) and do my thing

4. Clean the house - The house is atrocious again. It's depressing. I didn't mention on here how I was contacted by the teevee show Hoarders about me and gigglemom being on the show. This was in January. They told me not to clean until mid-March when they'd be shooting the show. I declined because I thought there was no way in hell that I wouldn't have the house in tip top shape within a couple of weeks... um... here it is --- the end of March. I should've had a camera crew in here to humiliate me. I say the "Clean the House" thing A) because it's depressing and B) there're studies out there that prove that an unkept house makes you gain weight... in fact there's even a book out there called "Does This Clutter Make My Butt Look Fat?" --- sadly, and i'm being totally serious here, I cannot find the book in my house. I think it's in my bedroom, but, let's just say THAT is frightening.

5. Vent more on here --- I've been yammering on Facebook every day - but, I really need to get back to yapping on here... not that THAT'S really every helped me to lose weight, but, it's time to dust off the "Gigglechick Fat Off" phrasing again on here.

OKAY -- it's 4:32am. Time to implement the "Go to bed early" part of this new plan.

okay... didn't make it to the gym today --- first I woke up at 12:30pm, which, since I was awake till 5am I am okay with starting today late. I did some laundry and attempted to dry my sneakers. Unfortunately, my clodhoppers kept kicking the dryer open so I set them outside in the sun for a while. They should be dry by tomorrow. TOMORROW. Thursday. I WILL be going to the gym.

I have to make a meal plan for gigglemom and myself and then head to the food store tomorrow as well. In the meantime, here's what I had to eat today:



BREAKFAST (which was at 2pm)

Dunkin Donuts Turkey Sausage Egg Whilte Flatbread Sandwich [nutrition]
CALORIES: 280 | TOTAL FAT: 6g | TOTAL CARBS: 37g | FIBER: 3g | SODIUM: 820mg

Dunkin Donuts Iced Toasted Almond Coffee with Whole Milk
CALORIES: 75 | TOTAL FAT: 4g | TOTAL CARBS: 6g | FIBER: 0g

Tablepoon Sugar
CALORIES: 46 | TOTAL FAT: 0g | TOTAL CARBS: 12g | FIBER: 3g

DINNER:

Perdue Perfect Portion Chicken Breast (Skinless/Boneless... Baked) [nutrition]
CALORIES: 140 | TOTAL FAT: 1.5g | TOTAL CARBS: 0g | FIBER: 0g SODIUM: 60mg

Campbell's V8 Tomato Herb Soup (chicken was baked in it. had 1/2 cup) [nutrition]
CALORIES: 45 | TOTAL FAT: 0g | TOTAL CARBS: 19g | FIBER: 3g | SODIUM: 375mg

Bird's Eye Brussels Sprouts [nutrition]
CALORIES: 50 | TOTAL FAT: 0g | TOTAL CARBS: 9g | FIBER: 3g | SODIUM: 20mg

Pennsylvania Dutch Broad Egg Noodles [nutrition]
CALORIES: 220 | TOTAL FAT: 3g | TOTAL CARBS: 40g | FIBER: 2g | SODIUM: 15mg

Land O' Lakes Salted Butter [nutrition]
CALORIES: 100 | TOTAL FAT: 11g | TOTAL CARBS: 0g | FIBER: 0g | SODIUM: 95mg

SNACK @ 9PM:

Pop Secret 94% Fat Free Butter Flavored Popcorn [nutrition] (1/2 bag)
CALORIES: 110 | TOTAL FAT: 2g | TOTAL CARBS: 23g | FIBER: 4g | SODIUM: 240mg

TOTAL NUTRITION FOR WEDNESDAY:

CALORIES: 1066 | TOTAL FAT: 27.5g | TOTAL CARBS: 146g | FIBER: 18g | SODIUM: 1625 mg

okay... that's a lot of sodium. gotta keep an eye on that.

*** I'd forgotten that I had a little butter on the noodles so I edited this and added it into the tally.

Went to bed at 11:45pm last night in my attempt to get to be "early". I was asleep for only an hour when the volume on the teevee woke me up (GM turned it on) --- as much as I tried to get back to sleep, it was 4am before I passed out again.

THEN, for some ungodly reason, my body woke me up at 7am and I've not been able to get back to sleep. (My alarm was set for 10am)

In the meantime, I figured I would make myself something to eat --- there's nothing in here, so I made a turkey burger... I needed to eat SOMETHING because I have to make out a grocery list and then head to the food store... if I hadn't shoved something down my gullet, I'd probably be loading up the cart with pierogies.

UPDATE 7:30pm: well... i did not go to the gym... again... BUT I am sweating my ass off (eww. yes. i know.) I went to the food store at 4:30pm and walked around it until 6:30pm pushing a monster cart filled with healthy stuff. really. like GOOD stuff. the only downside to buying a giant, filled-to-the-brim cart filled with "good & healthy" food is that my debit card has lost weight. jeezuz. I could feed a family of 12 in Haiti for 9 years with what I spent on this stuff (i might be exaggerating... but, still. cuss.)

had to put the top down on Phooka in order to fit all of the bags (canvas!) into the car. My upper body is burning right now because of all the bagging and then lifting and then carrying (14 canvas bags filled...) and THEN when I got home, I had to empty the fridge and throw out old stuff (more upper body) -- then I had to put all this good crap away. I am spent. Which tells me something.... I'm definitely in need of heading to the gym. Baby steps. Baby steps.

At the moment, I am sitting here sipping on a seltzer which i've added a splash of pomegranate juice to. i love this stuff. way too much $$$ spent though.

Thinking lean turkey burger with non-fat cheese on a deli thin for dinner... or two, since I don't want to starve myself.

BREAKFAST - 9am

93/7 Lean Seasoned Turkey Burger Patty [nutrition]
CALORIES: 170 | TOTAL FAT: 8g | TOTAL CARBS: 0g | FIBER: 0g | SODIUM: 600mg

Kraft White American Single Slice of Cheese [nutrition]
CALORIES: 60 | TOTAL FAT: 4.5g | TOTAL CARBS: 2g | FIBER: 0g | SODIUM: 260mg

Arnold 100% Whole Wheat Sandwich Thin [nutrition]
CALORIES: 100 | TOTAL FAT: 1g | TOTAL CARBS: 21g | FIBER: 6g | SODIUM: 230mg


TOTAL FOR BREAKFAST:

CALORIES: 330 | TOTAL FAT: 13.5g | TOTAL CARBS: 23g | FIBER: 6g | SODIUM: 1090 mg

LUNCH: - 3pm (yeah... an iced coffee isn't a good "lunch", I know)

Dunkin Donuts Iced Toasted Almond Coffee with Skim Milk [nutrition]
CALORIES: 45 | TOTAL FAT: 0.4g | TOTAL CARBS: 6.1g | FIBER: 0g

Tablepoon Sugar
CALORIES: 46 | TOTAL FAT: 0g | TOTAL CARBS: 12g | FIBER: 3g

TOTAL FOR LUNCH:

CALORIES: 91 | TOTAL FAT: 0.4g | TOTAL CARBS: 18.1g | FIBER: 3g | SODIUM: 0 mg

DINNER: - 7pm
93/7 Lean Seasoned Turkey Burger Patty [nutrition]
CALORIES: 170 | TOTAL FAT: 8g | TOTAL CARBS: 0g | FIBER: 0g | SODIUM: 600mg

Kraft Fat Free White American Single Slice of Cheese [nutrition]
CALORIES: 25 | TOTAL FAT: 0g | TOTAL CARBS: 2g | FIBER: 0g | SODIUM: 260mg

Arnold 100% Whole Wheat Sandwich Thin [nutrition]
CALORIES: 100 | TOTAL FAT: 1g | TOTAL CARBS: 21g | FIBER: 6g | SODIUM: 230mg

93/7 Lean Seasoned Turkey Burger Patty [nutrition]
CALORIES: 170 | TOTAL FAT: 8g | TOTAL CARBS: 0g | FIBER: 0g | SODIUM: 600mg

Kraft Fat Free White American Single Slice of Cheese [nutrition]
CALORIES: 25 | TOTAL FAT: 0g | TOTAL CARBS: 2g | FIBER: 0g | SODIUM: 260mg

Arnold 100% Whole Wheat Sandwich Thin [nutrition]
CALORIES: 100 | TOTAL FAT: 1g | TOTAL CARBS: 21g | FIBER: 6g | SODIUM: 230mg



TOTAL FOR DINNER:


CALORIES: 590 | TOTAL FAT: 18g | TOTAL CARBS: 46g | FIBER: 6g | SODIUM: 2180mg

SNACK: - 9pm

Popchips Salt & Pepper Flavor [nutrition]
CALORIES: 120 | TOTAL FAT: 4g | TOTAL CARBS: 20g | FIBER: 1g | SODIUM: 290mg

Watermelon chunks [nutrition]
CALORIES: 50 | TOTAL FAT: 1g | TOTAL CARBS: 11g | FIBER: 1g | SODIUM: 3mg

TOTAL FOR SNACK:

CALORIES: 170 | TOTAL FAT: 5g | TOTAL CARBS: 31g | FIBER: 2g | SODIUM: 293 mg






TOTAL NUTRITION FOR THURSDAY:

CALORIES: 1181 | TOTAL FAT: 36.9 g | TOTAL CARBS: 118.1 g | FIBER: 17 g | SODIUM: 3563 mg

Let's see... I really tried to go to bed early at 11:30pm last night. Didn't fall asleep until 4am. seriously. I wound up taking a swig of nyQuil at 3am to knock me out. It finally kicked in an hour later... grumble grumble grumble.

So, I woke up at around 12:30pm -- technically, that's 8.5 hours of sleep which is good, but still, I didn't want to miss half the day.

In any event... I'm going bowling (for the first time in years) with gigglecousin Kerry tonight. First we're going to dinner. Not sure where. I might actually try to say "can you cook that dry without butter or oil" for the first time. Depending on where we go, of course.

BREAKFAST - 12:30pm

Quaker High Fiber Instant Oatmeal - Maple & Brown Sugar flavor [nutrition]
CALORIES: 160 | TOTAL FAT: 2g | TOTAL CARBS: 34g | FIBER: 10g | SODIUM: 260mg

TOTAL FOR BREAKFAST:

CALORIES: 160 | TOTAL FAT: 2g | TOTAL CARBS: 34g | FIBER: 10g | SODIUM: 260 mg

LUNCH:

Original Laughing Cow Light Swiss (2 pieces) [nutrition]
CALORIES: 70 | TOTAL FAT: 4g | TOTAL CARBS: 1g | FIBER: 0g | SODIUM: 260mg

Celery (9 pieces) [nutrition]
CALORIES: 19 | TOTAL FAT: 0.2 g | TOTAL CARBS: 3.6 g | FIBER: 2 g | SODIUM: 96mg

TOTAL FOR LUNCH:

CALORIES: 89 | TOTAL FAT: 4.2g | TOTAL CARBS: 4.6 g | FIBER: 2 g | SODIUM: 386 mg

SNACK: - 4pm

Popchips Salt & Pepper Flavor [nutrition]
CALORIES: 120 | TOTAL FAT: 4g | TOTAL CARBS: 20g | FIBER: 1g | SODIUM: 290mg

TOTAL FOR SNACK:

CALORIES: 120 | TOTAL FAT: 4g | TOTAL CARBS: 20g | FIBER: 1g | SODIUM: 290 mg

DINNER:

6 applebee'sChicken Wonton Tacos [nutrition]
CALORIES: 915 | TOTAL FAT: 15 g | TOTAL CARBS: 30 g | FIBER: 0 g | SODIUM: 0mg

1.5 applebee's cheeseburger sliders [nutrition]
CALORIES: 514.5 | TOTAL FAT: 18 g | TOTAL CARBS: 52.5 g | FIBER: 0 g | SODIUM: --mg

1/4 applebee's nachos [nutrition]
CALORIES: 425 | TOTAL FAT: 19 g | TOTAL CARBS: 32 g | FIBER: 5g | SODIUM: 710.5mg
TOTAL FOR DINNER:


CALORIES: 1854.5 | TOTAL FAT: 52g | TOTAL CARBS: 114.5g | FIBER: 5g | SODIUM: 710.5mg

TOTAL NUTRITION FOR FRIDAY:

CALORIES: 2223.5 | TOTAL FAT: 62.2g | TOTAL CARBS: 173.1g | FIBER: 18g | SODIUM: 1646.5 mg

okay, so, last night I finally fell asleep at midnight and slept all the way through until 8:30am --- i think the bowling helped (it also might have been the gorging myself on Applebee's apps beforehand. Or it's because I took my zoloft at 7pm rather than at 11pm. Either way, I've had a decent night's sleep AND woke up before my alarm --- that NEVER happens.)

I did step on the scale this morning to see if i did a hell of a lot of damage last night with the apps... I'll step on it again on Tuesday and post my weight then. (In the meantime, let's just say, I'm pleased thus far... even after 6 chicken wonton tacos!)

**UPDATE @ 10:45pm -- so far, today, I'm doing great (granted, I had a 5 hour nap at one point which helped keep me out of the fridge)

notice how i've not mentioned going to the gym today or any day this past week? yeah, I'm actually thinking that tomorrow might be the day that I head back there and hop on the stairmaster and get sweaty. I do still have to clean the house... so, it's either the gym or cleaning --- gigglemom most likely will want me to clean. It's not like I don't want to, it's just that it's overwhelming as heck. Ah, maybe I'll tackle the house tomorrow and then go to the gym fresh on monday....

in any event, i'm feeling pretty good about things...

well, apparently, my ability to fall asleep by midnight on friday night was a fluke. I was up until 5am. woke up at 12:30pm. what the cuss?

anyway... even though i was awake throughout the night, i'm patting myself on the back for not gorging myself on potato chips and cookies (those are in the house for gigglemom)

**** UPDATE @ 10:20pm - I'm sitting here, watching Celebrity Apprentice (don't judge me) --- did pretty damned good today with the food and calories... AND the fat... I didn't head to the gym today... um, and i didn't clean the house. Baby steps :} Baby steps :}

Tomorrow will be my outing to the gym. I have a feeling I'll be hitting the hay before midnight tonight --- I took the zoloft at 7pm... so we'll see if that helps to make me slightly drowsy.

well, i thought that i was going to fall asleep at a reasonable time last night... I suppose I did - if you live in Hawaii - since I wound up FINALLY hitting the hay at 6:15am. yeah. awful. I woke up at 11:30am -- so, at least i got a little sleep.

it's pouring rain right now...sort of flooding the streets near me. i stepped on the scale again this morning... things are looking promising. I'll post the "official" weekly weigh-in tomorrow on here. remember, last tuesday I was 240.3 (that was the wake-up call for me... I've been hitting snooze for too long.)

With Easter coming up, I'm a little worried, because I have to go to a family dinner on Sunday and I think they want me to make dessert (which I don't need to eat, of course.) I just don't want to allow myself to get knocked off track.

I have a crazy amount of dishes to wash today - I'm not sure if I'll be making it to the gym... I think I'm going to focus on the cleaning and also cook some sort of chicken dish for dinner tonight (it's hard because gigglemom is all "chicken AGAIN?" --- although, I'd made pork chops last night and sausage the other night -- she thinks it was regular sausage, when in fact, it was turkey sausage)

if i feel up to it later, maybe i'll head to the gym, but between the housework and the cooking, it's looking like i'm just going to focus on the eating portion of the "lifestyle change" today.

yeah, actually, i'm going to go tomorrow... so that tomorrow when i weigh in, it will be a reflection of my food intake rather than the combo of exercise... next week's results will show that!

UPDATE @ 6:08pm : well, Monday has turned into Punctuation Day and i'm doubled over with cramps. yay. On the positive side, I can see the bottom of my sink... it's now soaking in hot water & clorox. Unfortunately, I only took the dishes OUT of the sink and set them to the side... but, it's a start. (I also have storage bins sitting on my patio and they've got dirty dishes in them. Yes. I've become a Dirty Dish Ostrich and have tried to not deal with them in a while. Yes, I would like to throw them all out... alas, gigglemom won't let me.

Gotta make a dent in some of these dishes & pans before starting dinner (I've been using paper plates & plastic utensils for a month.)

UPDATE @ 8:30pm: I'm calling an audible and not doing the chicken. I'm making a pork chop sandwich for gigglemom and I'll be having a turkey burger (The reason for the decision? I forgot to defrost the chicken breasts) -- took my Z at 8:30 as well... we'll see if tonight's a lucky early sleeping night

so, last night I knew that I was going to fall asleep by midnight! I could feel it in my bones... okay, wait, no, I knew I could fall asleep by 1am. Especially after not sleeping well the night before... ermmm, eh... why is it 2am and i'm wide awake? Okay, I KNOW that I'll be totally passed out by 3am and I can sleep until 10am...

That was how my brain was talking last night... nay... THIS MORNING ---- 9AM!!! NINE IN THE MORNING was when I finally was able to fall asleep ---- I just woke up 20 minutes ago at 1:30pm

what the cuss??!!!?

How exciting!!! I haven't worked out yet, either! That's on the agenda... not for today though as I am exhausted (and am showing The Friend around for a few days this month)

So this is promising.

Since I set MY GOALS last week, I've done pretty well...

okay... not too well with the getting to bed at a decent time --- maybe I'm putting too much pressure on myself with that and it's making me have a bout with insomnia... At least on Friday night I fell asleep early.

As you can see, I've been writing on my blog again... wow! At least this is getting me back in the habit of posting for consecutive days in a row... it's been a while since I've done that.

Move & Workout -- it'll happen. I promise. Baby steps.

Clean the house... I've tackled some of the dishes thus far... let's just say, I am frightened of them... but at least there's a crack of light at the end of the tunnel

The caloric intake... I am digging writing the calories and all that down... sure, i COULD just do the weight watchers points, but, I'm enjoying looking at the other numbers that I'm putting into my body...

So... that's the first weigh in!!! huzzah!!!

and now the big ol' color blocks of food will follow:

UPDATE @ 10:35pm: sitting here watching Parenthood on nbc... great show! I'm pretty happy with the dinner I made.... It was a faux Chicken Cordon Blue

Gigglemom takes Restoril to stay asleep at night and she's going to let me have one tonight so that I get back on track with the sleeping pattern. Cross your fingers that it works for me --- that and hopefully I won't wind up eating a bag of chips or cookies or hop in my car and drive off in my sleep ;}

hoorayyyyyyyy!! I got to be (somewhat) early --- at 2am (okay, I stayed awake watching The Biggest Loser on the DVR) and slept all the way until 11:50am!!! I will consider this a minor success.

more dishes to do today (yes. awful. you don't even KNOW the horror.)

not sure if i'll be heading to the gym today... The Friend is still hanging around and I don't want to deal with that whole gym/cramp thing on the first day of working out. I'm sure I'd feel better if I went, but, I'm easing my way back...

In the meantime... FOOD COLOR BLOCKS:

UPDATE @ 10:15pm: hey!! okay, so, here it is after 10pm and i'm not hungry, yet, i've not had a ton of calories today... doing pretty good anyway.

today, i made a deal with gigglemom that if i clean the house like a madwoman, I can get a dog.

I think I'm ready to make the leap back into being a doggy mama.

so... this time, I plan on adopting from a rescue. aaaaaand, I want a rough coated Jack Russell... here's the thing, this afternoon I spoke with a woman who is fostering a 5 year old Jack named Misty.

So, I have to call her back tomorrow and perhaps head up to East Brunswick to meet Misty.

I'm making a dent in the living room so far :}

UPDATE @ 11:59PM
DON'T FORGET TO RABBIT, RABBIT FIRST THING IN THE MORNING!!!!